Neonblue

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Location: Canada
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I read what a Christian brother said on a Christian site, he said that Christ is like the tide it comes in then it goes out and we're there on the beach waiting for the tide to come in again. I do understand that but its the emotional aspect of our being or spirit wanting to feel the presence of God but I can honestly say I don't wait for the tide to come in, the tide is always there. After 30 years of walking with Christ I know he's always there but in the beginning when I first come to Him I had all this feeling of His presence. Its much like meeting someone for the first time I felt all this love in my heart and mind filling up inside of me, I felt the mercy and the love(His Presence) in my heart, in my spirit. Much like a marital relationship but over the years there's not so much feeling as it was in the beginning but now its more of a bond, wanting to be with Christ, wanting to stay with Him, wanting His Grace to obey Him. I developed patience in this relationship with Christ(and does not a marital relationship require patience) and I find I am deep rooted in my relationship with Christ and I feel contented, I feel at peace in knowing in my heart and mind he's always there. You got to want to be with your spouse, you got to want to stay with your spouse, you got to want to obey your spouse and its in the wanting that God disperses Grace upon a "willing spirit". We developed through patience the "peaceful fruit of righteousness and in this patience we develop a strong relationship with Christ. Its the "wanting" and the "patience" that develops a strong relationship with Christ. Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: 25 and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock Matthew 7: verses 24 & 25. Luke Chap.8 verse 15 Jesus said" But that on the good ground are they which in a honest and good heart having heard the word , keep it , and bring forth fruit with patience". Hebrews chapter 12 Verse 11: For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness James Chap. 1 verse 2: My brethren count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations Verse 3: Knowing this that the trying of your faith worketh patience. Verse 4: But let patience have her perfect work , that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing. Pastor I ask the Lord to help me understand my enduring relationship with Him, yes in the beginning I felt His Presence, all that love and mercy but soon after I was stubborn and disobedient to Him and I only obey Him because I feared His judgment of sin but in the past ten years I wanted to obey Him, I wanted to make the sacrifice to pray to Him for His Grace to obey Him, I wanted to endure with patience "to bear the peaceful fruit of righteousness". And now today its not so much that I fear His judgment of sin but its the "wanting" I want to obey Him, I want to be with Him, I want to appreciate what he's done for me. In His word I read 1 John 4: Verse18: There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. What a difference this has made in my life the "wanting" the sacrifice of prayer "enduring with patience" and appreciating what God has done for me. I remember in my childhood my earthly father, I was disobedient to him and I feared him. Not always would I listen to him but I obeyed him because I feared he would punish me. My fear was greater than my love, there was very little love.