Standfirm
Location: Canada
About Me
Before I turned 23 all I knew was the reality of my own life the depression, the hardships, the drugs then when I turned 23 I knew the reality of God. Its a wonder I got through my teenage years and I'm not dead or on a psychiatric ward but I got to give credit where credit is due and that credit is due to God. By the time I was 23 yrs old my mind was totally mess up, my memory was shot, I was totally addicted to many kinds of drugs LSD MDA Mescaline Grass Hash Hash Oil Glue Sniffing and other drugs I can't remember. After a while I couldn't face my friends anymore or people in general because I felt when I had a conversation with them I was saying things stupid even when I wasn't on the drugs. I had no confidence in myself and I felt people were smarter than me so I kept to myself and did all the drugs alone in my fantasy world listening to rock & roll day in and day out. I went into a state of depression that was very bad and I did more and more drugs to try to be happy but it didn't work. It's was Christmas Day 1978 and I was alone in the house everyone was out with their friends even my mother was out seeing a friend of hers. I had no drugs that day and I was overcome with grief and I cried and I cried and I cried my mind was so messed up and my heart was breaking inside of me that I look up at the ceiling and said "God if you are real I need help bad I'm sorry for the way I lived my life". I thought I was grasping at straws and I felt there wasn't any hope but than as I was crying I felt a powerful feeling surged through me it was like it started in the pit of my stomach rose up to my chest and into my mind and this amazing feeling of peace overflowed my mind like a river. I looked up at the skies and said "God you're real aren't you". I felt so full of peace it was like it was too much and I felt so happy. I left the house and went out into the streets and all kinds of thoughts went through my mind. Thoughts like "Does anyone know about this that God is real and am I the only one in the world that knows that". I seen an old man coming down the street and I felt like rushing over to him to say to him "Hey man He's real God is real the whole world is fooled in thinking He's not". It was the most dramatic experience I ever had in my life especially knowing that God is real all the craving for the drugs disappeared from my mind it was like "wiping white chalk off a blackboard" it no longer existed in my mind. Since that day I read the Bible and I studied it with all my heart and I learned from the Bible what God require of me. God is there for everyone His Salvation, His Mercy, His Compassion and He's there for you just tell him you're sorry for any wrong that you done and pray for His Peace to come upon you. And if temptation is strong in your life pray for His Grace to resist it.
Before I turned 23 all I knew was the reality of my own life the depression, the hardships, the drugs then when I turned 23 I knew the reality of God. Its a wonder I got through my teenage years and I'm not dead or on a psychiatric ward but I got to give credit where credit is due and that credit is due to God. By the time I was 23 yrs old my mind was totally mess up, my memory was shot, I was totally addicted to many kinds of drugs LSD MDA Mescaline Grass Hash Hash Oil Glue Sniffing and other drugs I can't remember. After a while I couldn't face my friends anymore or people in general because I felt when I had a conversation with them I was saying things stupid even when I wasn't on the drugs. I had no confidence in myself and I felt people were smarter than me so I kept to myself and did all the drugs alone in my fantasy world listening to rock & roll day in and day out. I went into a state of depression that was very bad and I did more and more drugs to try to be happy but it didn't work. It's was Christmas Day 1978 and I was alone in the house everyone was out with their friends even my mother was out seeing a friend of hers. I had no drugs that day and I was overcome with grief and I cried and I cried and I cried my mind was so messed up and my heart was breaking inside of me that I look up at the ceiling and said "God if you are real I need help bad I'm sorry for the way I lived my life". I thought I was grasping at straws and I felt there wasn't any hope but than as I was crying I felt a powerful feeling surged through me it was like it started in the pit of my stomach rose up to my chest and into my mind and this amazing feeling of peace overflowed my mind like a river. I looked up at the skies and said "God you're real aren't you". I felt so full of peace it was like it was too much and I felt so happy. I left the house and went out into the streets and all kinds of thoughts went through my mind. Thoughts like "Does anyone know about this that God is real and am I the only one in the world that knows that". I seen an old man coming down the street and I felt like rushing over to him to say to him "Hey man He's real God is real the whole world is fooled in thinking He's not". It was the most dramatic experience I ever had in my life especially knowing that God is real all the craving for the drugs disappeared from my mind it was like "wiping white chalk off a blackboard" it no longer existed in my mind. Since that day I read the Bible and I studied it with all my heart and I learned from the Bible what God require of me. God is there for everyone His Salvation, His Mercy, His Compassion and He's there for you just tell him you're sorry for any wrong that you done and pray for His Peace to come upon you. And if temptation is strong in your life pray for His Grace to resist it.